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[Jan. 12th, 2008|09:01 pm] |
The amount of wine Ive consumed in the last week has far surpassed any amount I've consumed up to this point in my life. And it's all been perfect. Living with Sara and Jamie. WHAT THE FUCK. Finally. I love tearing Sara away from her sparton studies at 11pm to smoke a fatty and bitch about the trivialities of everything anyone lives for and the fact that the very least we can do is be fabulous while it all goes down. Present your booze and drugs or leave this fabulous house.
My parents came with their truck to pick up shit tons of furniture today. It all came from different places but all superbly fits together, like a glove. It's a wee bit swank for my taste, but I can adapt. It's all too easy, you know. Having a gorgeous bathroom with a two seated shower, vaulted ceilings and cheap jewelry draped about... it's not half bad you know. Of course we're still doing our part to save the whales; No meat, rollies, fatty jays, recycling and minimal electricity.
It sucks living in a world where you're silly and "rebellious" for giving a shit what happens to the planet. If there's ANYTHING real out there... it's fucking nature. It was here long before you and -hopefully, though doubtfully- will be here long after. If you think that your actions daily, wasting resources, polluting the air, purchasing goods from the corporate devils of the world, supporting them, giving them reason to keep strong in their focus isn't COMPLETELY INTERCONNECTED with every other problem with this world, you're fucking ridiculous.
VOTING: and what? so, some of you vote because you want to have a voice.
Some of you vote because it's better to try than not.
Many of you don't because you realize the world is already to hell in a hand-basket and you'd rather bitch over a bottle of wine than waste energy on voting when you're only ONE person.
Many don't care anymore, and realize their is no paper trail in the voting ballets. With digital voting scores, who's to say what you punch in is even recognized?
BUT FUCK ALL THAT. forget about it for a moment.
EVERY DOLLAR YOU SPEND IS A VOTE YOU MAKE.
You think, even if you vote it won't make a differnce.
Every time you [and I, unfortunately] purchase a pack of cigarettes we're feeding the company out to take our money and let us die with no remorse.
Every time we purchase gas we're doing the same.
Every time you shop at a big store and hate how they've monopolized everything, that's just one more person rooting them on and making it all possible.
I know sometimes it seems that being the person you should be is pointless, seeing that hardly anyone is these days anyway.
Well, I had an interesting conversation that hit a good point.
There are so many kids out there, floating from foster parent to foster parent in the name of a social security check for said guardian. Kids floating in and out of fucked up homes where they're raped or just not quite nurtured properly enough to be someone that isn't a waste of space or air.
People worry about what may come if they raised 6 kids. They all worry they'll feel either neglected or just be too much trouble.
DOES ANYONE HAVE FAITH IN THEIR OWN HUMANITY. IN THEIR OWN CAPACITY TO LOVE OR NURTURE HOW ONE SHOULD BE. WE ARE ONLY AS POWERFUL AND BRILLIANT AS WE ALLOW.
All of those kids being tossed around like puppies from the dog-pound who may or may not be house trained. THEY'RE ALIVE AND THEY ARE THE NEXT GENERATION OF PEOPLE. LIVE A LIFE THAT MAKES YOU CONFIDENT IN YOUR ABILITY TO RAISE ANOTHER HUMAN WHO CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE. GET OFF YOUR SELFISH PEDESTAL AND FORGET AND BULLSHIT FOR A SECOND.
Probably not possible because none of you realize the interconnectedness of EVERYTHING. "this or that may be fucked up" but my actions won't affect anything.
IN FASHIONING MYSELF I FASHION MAN. -sartre
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[Feb. 15th, 2006|07:41 am] |
today, since im not at school, thank heavens, i'll do some [long awaited] laundry, clean my [disoriented] bedroom, do my [super late] homework, and listen to some [mellow-dank] tunes by neil young, and it will feel amazing because, in my opinion, anything is better than wasting a 7:17am to 6:00pm day attending the institution lovingly referred to as o.c.h.s.a., which consists of 95 percent crazies, and only 5 percent awesomes, which do happen to be the awesomest awesomes around, making the other 95 percent seem pretty bearable at times, the downfall being that its only 13 percent of the 9 hour day that i get to spend with them, the other 87 percent stuck in classrooms, though not pointless for everyone, pointless for me considering only 20 percent of the 87 percent day of classes that i spend 'learning' are actually classes that are prerequisite to graduate, causing a detrimental case of senioritus, which makes it more and more difficult to sit through the pointless 80 percent of my classes, 87 percent of the school day, though only having about 45 percent of the school year left, as i will have spent 75 percent of my highschool year at this school by the time this last 45 percent is completed, thus leaving me the next 75 percent of my life left to live, and you know whats funny, the fact that the force our lives have been utterly centered around for the past 12 years, highschool diploma, is going to end in merely four months and it can be done and overwith and never thought about again if you so please, so all that you've known, [school], and all that you've lived for, your main concern [well, your parents', the state of californias, etc], will finally be... finalized, and now your left to do whatever, wherever, with whomever you choose, which is earthshaking because now it's basically up to you to decide what your life will evolve around and what your main concern will be, and what really is the 'main concern', is it to get a 'good' education, move onto a 'successful' career so you can find 'happiness' in working that same 'successful' job for eternity so you can provide for what you 'need' and 'want' in a 'nice' home, because, of course, you want to be a 'respectable' citizen in this 'beautiful' country, the land of 'opportunity', opportunity to get a 'good' education and a 'good' job, but is that really even legit, i mean, who says that its good and successful to climb up the latter of this country where we understand money to be substantial, and that its completely sensible the way we play with small pieces of paper [currency] and base our life around it, and in order to survive you must be the fittest, and unless youve climbed up the latter high enough to surpass your average joe, you can't actually 'help' your neighbor, and the 'help' your lending is really a boost further up this latter, so apparently its great, climbing the latter, but its just an effing latter, i'd rather stay on the ground where i know what im doing, where i can be content and not be shoved along, taking a step up now and then, and maybe two steps back depending on the ever changing worth of our dollar and the stock market and each little detail of the 'fair' economy our country has built, so what i guess im trying to say, is i wish i knew my place in this society.
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[Feb. 14th, 2006|10:20 pm] |
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this evening i had the first real date ive ever been on, and my first real valentine. not half bad.
im beyond sick of school.
ooh, im intensely bummed about the white house party's cancellation. what a crying shame.
this weekend should be fun. no school monday! im always down for no school. always.
im in ULTIMATE tired mode. most likely a warm thank you to my mono-infected brother whom ive been taking care of. awesome. |
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| a friendly update |
[Dec. 2nd, 2005|09:13 am] |
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| | afro man | ] |
on the eve of wednesday my band, western subject played at plush. im bummed i didn't get to stay around, the line up was sweet ASS. i was incredibly impressed on the turn up. especially for a week night. i got to see my older brother, who drove down all the way from LA. and jessica. she, kendra and roger came up. insanely awesome. i got about a five minutes glimpse of the others- nichole, brittany, melissa.. who dropped by after disneyland. very cool.
im leaving for two weeks. im excited to see my sister. i have no idea what to expect. hanging out inside watching the snow, watching my threes company dvd that taylor loaned me, going out and getting crunk, freezing to death? it all sounds exciting to me. i'll probably get really homesick, and miss out on a LOT, especially since elan's parents are out of town. BUMMIN'. buuuut, i get back in time for winter break, so i won't have to miss thaat. thank goodness.
this is somewhat how i envision my flight going today...
i meet awesome kids on the plane, then there's a mega crazy blizzard that causes an overnight layover in denver. im pretty sure none of that will happen, but.. why should i rule it out completely?
if you send me your address, you may get a postcard..
ba bye then
why do i feel incredibly aware of everything around me and the way things happen, yet im soon reminded of my oblivion. is it ignorant or blissful? |
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| kicked out of ochsa? |
[Jun. 2nd, 2005|07:44 pm] |
I could possibly get kicked out of school for graffiti. WHAT?
I was talking to the principle, he says that there has been more than one witness, that says I am the one who has been vandalizing the school walls. I guess there's been a recent outbreak, kids writing crude things about him, in the girls bathroom, in the boys bathroom, in the halls. everywhere. pictures, and other things of that sort.
APPARENTLY someone even SAW me doing it. and several others have told on me as well.
funny thing is, I never even saw this graffiti. I didn't even know it existed. Thus meaning, there is some cold-hearted person[s] at my school who want me dead. aka, kicked out. interesting! I hope that this goes further, I am really anxious to face my accusers. Im so intrigued! bring it on, suckas. |
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[May. 19th, 2005|08:46 pm] |
tomorrow is prom. horrray! and I even have a date. daaang.
My eyes are crossing, Im beyond tired.
why do I do this to myself?
Im going to las vegas saturday morning.. bright and early. lucky thing I'll get a full nights sleep after prom, eh? ha.
I hate getting lonely. totally the pits. ever get lonely even when there are people around? yeah. lame.
Last weekend I went to san fran with James. it was wonderful. I especially loved how I took a whole throw-away full of pictures, then I lost the camera. real cute, destiny. All the pictures, now gone. ah. Im so good at doing things like that. |
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[Apr. 11th, 2005|11:16 am] |
Last week I thought it'd be funny to make up a big whopper and tell my mom there was no school monday. she un-reluctantly believed me. Rad, I thought to myself. But I forgot all about it. I was actually planning on telling her that there was actually school, well maybe anyway. It escaped my mind. This morning I woke up, got ready and everything. I walked out to the kitchen, lunch box in hand... only to find that she had left without me. GLORIOUS. This may sound like Im screwed, but my dad was home. He said he could take me to cool, but advised me to be smart and not go to school if I didn't HAVE to. My daddy rules.
ANYONE. if you go to disney land, invite me. I have a pass. I haven't used it. Not one single time. am I that unpopular? haha. well. anyway! I love Disneyland and I more than likely love you, so if you go, call me up.
Wanna know something? I love you, albert. you have no idea! I loove your sense of humor. really. I miss talking to you on the phone all of the time. call me again if you find the chance. |
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[Mar. 23rd, 2005|09:35 am] |
I guess I couldn't even think about going to school today. thus why I am here, at home. I hate staying home- I hate not having someone to talk to, I hate tv, I hate being inside all day..
I am just out of sorts.
Destiny, where did you go?? I don't feel like myself. ahhhhhhh. at least there's cake here to eat. I just need sleep I guess. |
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[Mar. 20th, 2005|10:56 am] |
I just got home from a sleep over. Being out of the girly-best-friend loop is... interesting. I guess hanging out with only boys caught up to me. Though I suppose I wouldn't trade it ever..I really liked being around all the girls, it was really giggly and cute and awesome. I don't get enough of it.
My family is out of town, Im all alone. I wish someone would come play with me!
give me a ring, guys! |
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| oh man! |
[Mar. 17th, 2005|08:07 pm] |
So this week it has been totally sunny. Yesterday the weather guy said it would rain this weekend. But of course I didn't believe him. Then today it was a little bit overcaset. Im starting to think his forecast may have been not ALL together bee-ess. Totally bummed.
Do you guys think that maybe that what makes a person creative is simply, curiosity?
All my shoes are falling apart, all of my pants fit me lamely, my hair is shabby, I can't find any shirts for the life of me... and it seems like only yesterday I had a nimiety to choose from. what's a girl to do? ha ha, well... stop being so vein, perhaps? I need to go thrifting. Someone take me, and quick!
Spring break is soooon. I want to go to San Francisco or somewhere exciting. Scratch that, I just want to go camping. SOMEone take me camping. Does anyone have a van? Let's sleep in your van. I just don't wanna stay around here, that's all.
Oh, I wish I saw Brandon last Friday. yeah.
I wish I knew how to post picture. not that I would actually have the time. But if I knew how, I think it'd be fun. |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2004|06:37 pm] |
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| | nuetral milk hotel | ] |
soooo FRIDAY Im goin to Esco! Jessica-Destiny-Mandy-slumberparty-2k4. Plus, Mike, Luke, and James wanna come down and visit for the day. Wonder what will come of that!
Tomorrow's the last day of school for the week. Thank heavens, at last it arrives. phew.
This morning was nice, instead of killing all my time at Burger King like usual... I decided to mix things up a bit. so I walked over to the local courthouse. It was still misty ...nightime indolently fading off. and a nice grassy area it was. I intended to read for a mere 10 minutes before I needed to mosey on over to school. Only, I got rapped up in my book... appearently I sat there reading for a solid 45 minutes. Good goin', Destiny.
this is the room one afternoon I knew I could love you..
Call me if you want to play over the next couple of days. |
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[Nov. 18th, 2004|10:44 am] |
Hello!!! ....I forgot livejournal existed.
I stayed home from school today, ::sigh::
...So much homework to finish..
so, guys. neat! ah, this is weird! it's been forever.
mmmmmmmm... CONSIDER THIS AN SOS out to all of my good friends whom I haven't seen in ages. [which is mostly everyone who reads my journal]. I want to spend time with you |
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| She's a silky girl... with a sandpaper face |
[Jul. 25th, 2004|10:12 pm] |
This past week was stressful, but also relaxing. Does that make sense? kinda kickback because I didnt go somewhere everyday and exhaust myself like usual, but stressful because I was watchign kids and cleaning non stop. But that's okay, just a week out of the whole summer, can't do any harm. Plus, it was my sister from out of town that I got to hang with, so hey.
So like I was saying, my sister is in town. Ive said this before IM sure. Anyway, yeah it's really great having her here. It was almost like we were just meeting for the first time. When I use to be around her a lot, I was more of a kid. Like maybe 12 years old or younger. I hadn't gone through the stage where I started developing some kind of personality, or who I am yet. So it was really cool for her to get to knwo me again and I, her. I am so thrilled that we're so close now. It's a shame she's going home on Sunday. That's okay, now that we'er aquainted, it'l be impossible not to stay in touch and visit.
Thursday the "YELLOW AND BLACK ATTACKKKK!!!" made its first appearance!! AND I missed it. THAT'S OKAY. So I hear, they killed everyone. NOt killed in the violent way, but killed in the dominating way.. you know, on the dance floor. AAAWESOMEEE
Tomorrow I'll come to san diego to get Mandy. It will be the time of our lives. RIGHT? right. I miss that kid so muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch. AND IM GONNA GET TO BE WITH HER FOR THREE DAYS. RADI-KILLER!!
I am gonna go to camp with Calvary Chapel south bay! Im exxciiiiiiiiited. It's 130 dollars, that I don't have. But that's okay. God always pulls through.
Well, I have plenty more to say, but I know how hard it is sometimes to read other people's long entries.. so I'll end it here. |
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[Jul. 21st, 2004|10:43 pm] |
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Well I went to SD for a few hours last night, nice little trip. But I didn't get to see Brandon.
But on the way home, at 2:30 in the morning, a big rig fell over and appearently caught on fire. So that left me and my sister sitting completely stopped, in park, on the freeway, for two hours. It was quite a sight. Everyone was out of their cars, hangin' out, talkin' to eachother, walking around on the freeway. Such a pleasent atmosphere, yet all at the same time, totally creepy 'cause they were ALL men. Big truckers and what not. Sheesh.
I was planning on coming down on Friday for that music festival where Scarlet Symphony was playing... but I realized that my sister's engagement party is on Saterday and it is a 'must' that I be here to set up and all. That's okay, there'll be plenty more Scarlet Symphony shows to attend.
My birthday's sooooooon!!!! August eleveth. Sweet sixteen...- and no sweet heart. hm.
..any takers?!
ha! |
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| The summer rat race |
[Jul. 13th, 2004|04:38 am] |
My sister has an abundance of children, and today I babysat them- BOY IS THAT LOVE. Tomorrow, beaaaaach party!! UH OH!
I cut my bangs tonight, they're alright
I hate this I hate this hate this. BOYS! They make me crazy!!
I love you ALYSIA.......You have no idea
So, the week started off a little rough. Some family issues, but Im coo, Im coo.
I am really bummed, I don't think I am gonna get to go to a camp this summer. My church's camp falls right on my birthday. Who do they think they are anyway?! SOME NERVE. sheesh! Well, yeah. SO if anyone's youth group is having a summer camp, take me with you! They're my favorite
Life aint easy when its hard |
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[Jul. 12th, 2004|07:50 pm] |
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hey everyone. destiny is not around and she's logged in so i thought i'd post and tell you all how much i love destiny dempsey [a lot]. love, alysia! |
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[Jul. 9th, 2004|01:49 pm] |
Ive been in SD since Saterday now. I got down here and Mandy was stranded at the beach and couldln't pick me up from Escondido, so her gracious love Corie came and picked me up. IS that not the nicest thing you ever heard of?! SO THAT was awesome, Mandy found herself a really nice boy.
Then Sunday was the fourth [!] and Jessica, Jordan, Chris, Brandon, Corie, and Dustin came over to Mandy's. Swam and ate. And ate some more. Then we went to hang out with the whole town of Ramona in this person's front yard to watch the fireworks. I had lots of fun. Jordan was such a crack up that night too. Halarious.
Monday me and Chris saw F- 9/11, and boy is that movie intence. It's cool yeah, but hmm. I really liked it, because it did bring up many points that can often times be neglected, especially by the replublican party, but I also feel there had to be a lot of bias in there. I mean, I just don't know what to think. I totally think that movie rocked, I just know that if I went to a Bush ralley he would totlaly pump me up and I'd be like "YEAH!! THOSE SOULDIERS WILL NOT FIGHT IN VEIN, THEY'RE ALL DOING THE RIGHT THING", but then go to F- 9/11 and be like ahh Bush sucks. SO there's just two extremes here, and I am very much against extremism, it's silly. Well Trev is here to swim so I must stop this.
bye! |
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[Jun. 30th, 2004|04:18 pm] |
I really really wanna come down there to san diego and go to the del mar fair.......guess I'll have to wait until it comes up here to Orange county, since Ive put it off this long. DANGIT
I went tot he beach all day Monday, it was so much fun. Then today I went tot eh beach again and Im on my way to being the deepest shade of red you've ever seen! [no no Im lying]
Someone QUICK, invite me to the Del mar fair, before it leaves town!! |
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[Jun. 13th, 2004|07:20 pm] |
This weekend was so much fun. Jordan Palooza... had a great time.
ACCOUSTIC KICK-BACK.........everyone will share their talent. SO excited
eh enough! |
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